Saturday, June 23, 2007

Mission Admission

The newspapers say that it is time for the quest to supremacy; the news channels say that the forthcoming days will announce the result of this cutthroat competition of the paramount achiever… Really?! Is it really such a do-or-die situation? Will we call the one who is quelled a “loser”?

Yes, it’s that time of the year when we see the students making numerous trips to innumerable colleges, flipping through the pages of each possible prospectus, running after counselors to know about better career options, fishing for the most appropriate advice and checking all possible news channels every now and then to have their insights and expert comments! And as I witness this madness, just one word comes to my mind - PITY!

I know it is unfair for me to mock at the situation because I myself was a part of this rat- race last year. I too, consulted my seniors to make choices and what not. I too was a victim to failure and had to rework on my “priority” list. But now, when I look back, I feel strange. No, not because I did all that I now find pitiable but because it has today, forced me to question the very nature of our education system.

The Board Exams are making the students voraciously crave for more marks. The number of 99% and 100% are increasing. Scoring a cent percent in English is no longer a difficult task and your aggregate below a 95% is just not worth it! What fails to convince me is that rather than satiating the intellect, the liberal and incompetent levels of the Board Examinations are paving the path for the cataclysmic abrasion. And in this counterfeited education system, we witness more and more being slaughtered everyday irrespective of their fantastic result.

The stupendous cut-offs are a result of not just this incomprehensive model of education but also the influx of outstation students. Yes, I know it is a very strong statement to make and it is subject to strict scrutiny and massive criticism yet I claim that barring a few exceptions, Delhites are way ahead in terms of intellectual superiority, openness to social networking and involvement in Extra Curricular Activities. I admit and appreciate the fact that the outstation students too have written the same examination and excelled in the same but as far as the analysis in terms of promptness and smartness is concerned, they still have a long way to go to match up to the Delhi crowd. That’s the chief reason why a guy from Venky is more “acceptable” than a geek from SRCC. And I can say this adamantly and with such condemnable audacity because I HAVE witnessed it in college! Yet, we find no “reservations” for these Delhites. Yes, I am asking for reservation; just like everybody else is.

It’s not surprising then to see some of the sharpest brains tuning in to private institutes and pursuing BBA’s and the others who prefer foreign universities for the “Quality Curriculum”. It’s not their fault I think. But then, whose fault is it? I leave that for you to answer.

Moreover, the role of media cannot be overlooked. The news channels cover some unnecessary detailed analysis of every college and comments of the studio experts (ahem… lets relook their ages); the newspapers cover the comments from the city’s toppers on the “mantra” for their success and their future….. But what about those who have scored a decent 85-90%? Why are they not being consulted? Why isn’t there any track of their future plans? Probably because they are not intelligent!

In the face of my deliberate profanity and these adverse circumstances, the challenge that is posed is to successfully overcome this momentary “Marks Mania” and not succumb to these absolutely worthless cut-offs. No doubt, they might give you the best college, but remember that the real testimony lies in growing within the institution. The brand name can only give you an edge but not a personality; you have to sketch one for your own self.

So a piece of advice for all those who are a part of the disappointed spree, “Remember: An all-rounder from Venky is always better than a nerd at SRCC”.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

My Internship

okay, so to inform all those who don't know, yes i am working as an intern at a firm. and it's not bad at all. thought the firm is not really a very established one but the work that all of us are presently doing is surely grooming us in every possible way! moreover, i have the company of my classmates and it is a great time that we spend together.


and before anything else, i have to tell you people about my ultra-cool boss!

  • he was an SRite.
  • about 3 yrs elder to us.
  • he is ambitious and really impressive! i was totally smitten and convinced to join after our first conversation.
  • strict instructions have been given: NOT TO ADDRESS HIM AS "SIR"! he is Shiv.
  • he takes us out for a lunch almost every alternate day! accompanied by sessions of coffee when we are too lazy to work. and a treat at barista before you join the firm! (now, what else can you ask for?!)
  • he calls me a "birdie" because he "thinks" i don't eat much.... (now isn't that just so untrue!)
  • and there's more and more and more to it..........................

Those emotional talks with Utsav (thanks to his low score in his internals) about how tough(or easy) life is, the new agenda of fining Sunanda every time we cannot hear her and the way Shiv smiles (bcoz of irritation) when we aren't convinced with his arguments- are the highlights of the day- everyday!

i remember, before joining, i was told how tough the work was and it was under this work pressure that the firm had lost 3 interns in 10 days. my friends told me that i would just end up doing clerical work there. ultimately, no satisfacion, no pleasure, no recognition and utter misery. i was really skeptical about joining then. but after talking to Shiv, "everything" was worth his honest dreams, his confidence and his aspiraion to make it BIG in life!

so yeah, here i am... putting in my very best. and i hope he is saisfied with the kind of work i am doing. i am working on projects that the firm plans to put into action in a couple of months and believe me, by the end of these two months when it's time for us to leave, they will be in the process of their execution (if all goes well).

By the way, i just completed a week today in office! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to me! :-)

Thursday, May 03, 2007

TAG!

yeah exams are over!!!!!!!!!! yippie!!!!!!!!!!! and they havent been all that gr8 but not too bad either. so i am pretty much satisfied... and now starts a 2 1/2 month torture (yes, a torture) at home. gawd! it has been just 2 days and i feel utterly bored. though i watched a couple of movies but that cannot compensate for these upcoming days of boredom and those sleepless nights over the past two months.
anyway, i know there's one thing that comes to my rescue and it is called "BLOGGING" closel followed by "ORKUTTING". thus, i know it won't be all that tough!


Next is a tag taken from TANIA. hope u readers enjoy it!!!

Smoked a cigarette?: nopes and neither do i wish to. rather i get negative vibes from people who do. so if at all u smoke, don't tel me!

Crashed a friend's car?: i admit i am pathetic when it comes to driving but no, i haven't victimised any of my friends neither their precious cars....

Stolen a car?: ofcourse not! never!

Been in love?: yeah!!! it has a different charm to it altogether.

Been dumped?: yes again! this one too has a different charm to it! it really kills you when someone gets bored of u!

Shoplifted?: yup! picked up a chocolate froma store at the priya complex. i was shit scared and kept looking around fearing the consequences if at all i m caught. my friends had challenged me o do it and so i just cudn't chicken out of it. my conscience kept rebuking but my ego forced me to shoplift that cadbury chocolate! and guess wat after that they had the audacity to ask me to pick up a few more!!!!

Been in a fist fight?: nopes. but i saw one happening amongst the modern school guys. and it was dirty! hated the very sight of it! there was blood all over the ground!!!!!! ewww!!!!!!

Snuck out of your parent's house?: well, thought of doing that once (merely for fun) but ofcourse i didn't! i am a good girl, u see!!!!!

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: never. though the opposite has been true many times.

Been arrested?: ofcourse not! but yeah once when my car was towed (the credit goes to my innate driving skills), i had to visit the police station and the experience was quite an eye-opener.

Gone on a blind date?: nopes. and neither do i intend to...

Skipped school?: never! (and i regret it) i was the headgirl and my basket for troubles and misfortunes was always so full that i never dared to ask for more.

Been on a plane?: yup

Seen someone die?: yup, my dadi.4 yrs ago. it was aweful!

Been to Canada?: nopes.....

Purposely set a part of yourself on fire?: nopes....... it's a very lose kinda thing to do i feel(if done due to emotional reasons) and a really bad taste of fun( if done just for experience)

Been jet-skiing?: awwww!!! nopes....

Met someone in person from the Internet?: well, yeah u can say that. he was my friend's friend. so when he contacted me through hi5 first, i didn't reply but then when she old me about him and how he had fallen in love wid one of my pix (ahem ahem.....heheheh) i did talk to him. and am still in touch wid him.

Taken pain killers?: nopes

Flown a kite?: nopes

Built a sand castle?: yup, in those junior classes, just outside the junior skul's building. it was so much fun!!!!!!!

Gone puddle jumping?: yup! many times. and have relived those moments in college too....

Cheated while playing a game?: hahahaha!!!!! a zillion times!!!!

Been lonely?: a zillion times agn.........

Fallen asleep at work or school/college?: okay now this one's gonna be a shock! yeah, twice and in college and that too in RAJIV JHA's class. and once when i was seated on the front desk. i was awefully tired that day coz of excessive dance prac and i think he could make that out from the gestures that i made. dunno, if he saw me sleeping but yeah i did!

Used a fake ID?: nopes. i think it's an extremely loser kinda thing to do!

Felt an earthquake?: twice.......... thrice............. or maybe more. the most memorable being the morning when i was sleeping and suddenly the bed started shaking and i was screaming at my brother not to shake the bed... hehehhe......

Touched a snake?: ewwwww!!!!! no! never!

Slept beneath the stars?: have stared at the stars many a times but never fallen asleep!

Been robbed?: no! and i hope i dont ever live up to a dayy like that....

Been misunderstood?: hahahha.... a zillion times!!!!

Won a contest?: i have won many competitions- debating, dancing,etc. but they don't qualify to the stature of a contest, do they? oh yeah, i won the MS. POPULAR in skul. maybe that will fit!

Run a red light/stop sign?: yeah... again the credit goes to my driving!

Been suspended from school?:
nopes. but once when my badge was taken away in junior school (thanx to one A****** who cooked up a story to take "revenge" of i dunno wat) i felt it was nothing less than suspension!

Been in a car accident?: i am NOT that bad a driver now!

Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night?: yummy!!!! but haven't done that ever!

Walked the streets drunk?: no no!

Had déjà vu?: yup many times....

Danced in the moonlight?: i have left that to sometime in the future when i ll have a boyfriend to gimme company!

Witnessed a crime?: crime?! not really but sexual molestation (which i regard as nothing less than a crime) innumerable times....

Been obsessed with post-it notes?: not really!

Squished barefoot through the mud?: yeah!! it's so cool!!!!!

Been lost?: my mom tells me that once (i was 5 or 6 then) i just walked out of the house and was wandering in the streets when a guard happened to notice me and since he knew my dad pretty well, he got me back!!! i was nearly lost, wasn't i?

Been on the opposite side of the country?: nopes...

Swum in the ocean?: i "dunno" how to swim. learnt it long back but never cared to continue it!

Cried yourself to sleep?: ahhhh!!!!!!! ofcourse!!!! can't even remember how many times...

Played cops and robbers?: yup! and cheated in it too!!!!!

Recently coloured with crayons?: naaaa, long back........

Sung karaoke?: i am a terrible singer! i can't risk victimising nebdy!

Paid for a meal with only coins?: OMG!!!! (heheh) can't even think of doing something like this!

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: SHOPLIFTING!

Made prank phone calls?:
i am always tempted to! but have never gathered the courage to do something like that. i fear i ll be recognised too easily!

Caught a snow flake on your tongue?: i think i did only when it snowed in himachal outside my place....

Written a letter to Santa Claus?: didn't ever write a letter but yeah hid a sock once (just once) only to realise it was all crap! just a childhood sensation!

Blown bubbles?: yup! at India Gate!

Bonfire on the beach?: not at a beach but elsewhere, yeah!

Cheated on a test?: hahahah.... wrong question! manyy many many....... times... sumedh being my favourite accomplice!

Gone skinny-dipping in a pool?: as i said i "dunno" how to swim. i won't risk my life!


ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! so that has been long and tiring- both for u and for me!!!!
hope u guys enjoyed it!!!! waiting for u all to comment!

Saturday, March 31, 2007

i know, no one expects me to write a blog at the moment.. just a week and a half left before the university exams.... but i am utterly bored- both of studying and wasting time.

so here's to waste a little more of it but fruitfully!

world cup dreams shattered! INDIA is out! saw that entire match... by the end of it, i was literally in tears!

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by now everybody knows how crazy am i when it comes to dancing.... (ie, i assume that u have been following my previous blogs which cover a substantial mention of this passion of mine!)... yeah, so it had been a great year for our DANCE SOCIETY (okay, i apologise. i know i have mentioned this a zillion times), a special mention to the fact that it came into existence only a year ago. we won a total prize money of RS.18000 this year! though it is not at par with the other reputed teams but it surely is in a close competition.....

so, now this prize money has been divided among the 9 of us ( existing members of the team), after deductions being made for commuting, our costumes' costs and other expenses...... leaves us with around RS.1000 in hand with a RS.500 voucher. and yes, there is a hope for more money in our hands! thats coz some of the cheques haven't been encashed as of now.

and then some melodrama! i reach back home, hand over the cash to my parents saying "mom-dad,yeh meri pehli kamaayi!" and there they are, laughing like never before... i am amused too. wondering how such a melo statement struck my mind!

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i have been in touch with some of my seniors over the past few weeks. thanks to orkut and my addiction and capability to scrap all day. and believe me, i feel really good. that's bcoz i think they were the best of ppl BVN ever had. the sharpest brains, the most down-to-earth attitude and the ultra-cute seniors (yes, i mean it)! they have got into the best of universities, even better engineering institutions and the warmth with which they have been replying to the scraps gives me an immense satisfaction to be in touch wid them..... by the way, one of them has started modelling! hey, did you raise that eyebrow?! i know, how difficult it is to digest the fact that a BVNite is modelling!

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i think i have made this blog pretty boring. but i don't really care. and before i make it even worse, i think i should push off... even, my books are staring at me, cursing me coz i have ignored them for so long and contemplating to overpower my tiny brain with not-so-easy concepts. urghhh! oh my dear exams, plz get over quickly! i beg u!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

WORLD CUP MANIA!

the season of cricket is back. and this time it is a BIG event. it's the World Cup after all. dunno how many girls are enthusiastic about the game but i definitely am......

the excitement at my place is at its peak. even though we have lost to Bangladesh and our chances of making it to the Super 8 are extremely bleak, yet our hopes are aiming at the World Cup! undoubtedly, we are INDIANS.
NO, i am not mocking at anybody. i am just proud of the fact that we are not losers. we will rise from the ashes and prove to be the most deserving of all (okay, i too find this statement a bit too much to digest.) but one thing that has bothered me the most is the sudden death of Bob Woolmer. just a hypothetical situation, but consider....... what will happen if INDIA is out of the world cup by the 23rd?! the burning of the effigies, encroachment and destruction on Dhoni's land, media created hype and those infinite analysis sessions are already dominating after the defeat to Bangladesh.... if at all we are out of the quest, will it be another Bob Woolmer kinda death?!!! Ewww, it troubles me already!

and amidst this cricket fever, the most innocent victim is my academics..... well, being modest, it's not cricket that has been distracting me but the fact is that i DON'T wanna study. i sit with my books open, staring at those horrible concepts, wondering from where to start and with a million distractions around me ( the foremost being my cellphone, closely followed by cricket), i chuck the idea altogether of studying. are there no shortcuts? can i not study and still do well? urghhhh!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!

Monday, March 19, 2007

18h March, 2007

all these years, my birthday fell in the middle of the final term exams or the board exams and i never got a chance to celebrate the day the way i always wanted to. but now since there's no more schooling, i got my chance! and believe me, i was GLAD!

yeah, my birthday was just too perfect! (notwithstanding INDIA's defeat to BANGLADESH)

it started with the party of my aunt's 50th bday on the 17th eve. we didnt really expect them to remember that it would be our bday ("our" coz i have a twin brother too) in just a few hours from then but naaa, even though we met after really really long, they knew it very very well. so i danced, partied and yeah, (for the first time in my life) had bacardi too!!! :)))) u wanna know how i felt? just normal! that's bcoz i chucked it after a few sips coz it was extremely "KADVEE" and my head began to ache! (dunno y that happened?) but newaz, a good experience ... no, not the bacardi but the party!

then, 12 o clock! a dozen phone calls at the same time, double the number of msgs the very moment, it was the best beginning to the day. hugs and kisses and a lot more dancing followed. and then on our way back home only to sulk at india's dismal performance.... :((( a few more calls, a lot more msgs ( from some extremely forgetful ppl) and then i was off to sleep!

some puja kept me busy the following morning and then it was time to catch up with some really close friends. and the best bit of the entire afternoon was the wonderful surprises that my friend gave me, the most treasured being a frame (a HUGE one) with so many photos of our school life! an ultimate gift. i just could not stop smiling! and i still am! lol!
after the lunch(that extended till the evening) and my favourite cola bar( that's my version of the fruit beer), it was time for an awesome session of fooling around in the central park. and i thoroughly loved it! heheh.....

it was a beautiful day... had loads of fun and celebrated D-day the way i always wanted to. with some forgetting my bday and giving the most innocent replies to others who sulked bcoz i didnt receive their calls, with some who wanted to be the first ones to wish me to others who chose to ignore, it felt gr8 at the day's end!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

READ ON!

for the first time today, i m amused at an unpleasant situation than be my regular self (sulk). lol!
and before i go on any further, i must make some very important things clear: THIS BLOG IS MY VOICE. I M FREE TO VOICE MY EXPRESSION THOUGH THIS. I CAN WRITE ANY GOD DAMN THING IN IT. if anybody seems to have a problem with the way i write or wat i write, kindly COMMENT (as many did on the desperate men thing) or better still- IGNORE MY BLOGPAGE. nobody on this earth has asked u to read ALL my crap starting from the very beginning. and the one's who have very little knowledge about blogging, kindly update ur brain with it.
yeah, another thing, some extremely headstrong ppl have always had the audacity to deal with trivial issues with a lot comtempt, but now, i dont care a damn! go guys F*** ur attitude and show it to ppl who appreciate it. as for this entry, i was literally told to write this, so here i am. to rebuke, mock and jibe at ur( reference to just a few. don worry they ll understand) meagre mentality (my sympathies ;-(()
u know, its been really long now that i have explained my stand to my friends. i always thought i did something really wrong which got me into trouble but now i am sure, there's some shit stuck up in their heads only. oh cmon, i m almost 19 now. and i am quite mature to be my age. and almost all my friends have no grudges against me except a "selected few". but no regrets abt that. they have always cribbed. so here u r, i give u the freedom to crib all the more. happy cribbing! lol!
some (special reference to those "selected few" only) think that i have been bitching behind their backs through this blog. for heaven's sake yaar, wat can be more public than writing a blog in order to bitch (if at all i do). how on earth does it get "behind ur backs". moreover, dey say they dont care wat the world thinks and talks abt them, so y on earth does it hurt ur ass wen u read my blogs haan?! losers (in every sense of the word)! and above everything, they say they don't have "vella" time to start blogging in order to counter-attack my arguments. hmmm, but i m surprised that just a month before the final university exams, u HAVE TIME to read my earliest posts and then even call up to quarrel over the same! hats off yaar to these vellas. and now the "masterstroke", dey say i have a poor dressing sense!!! go f*** ur clothes then! wearing skirts to reunions don't give u an edge over the others, it rather shows how inappropriately u can dress up on formal occasions.

so guyz, this one's a very genuine request. all those who bother to read my blog, plz comment. comment on how secretive or exposing i have been, comment on how-not-right i am, comment on how bad or good a blogger am i. and especially on the dressing sense bit- not just mine, theirs too. i really wanna know......

NOTE:
my opinions are my very own. some will fume at this, others might just laugh! but here's, on MY VERY OWN BLOGPAGE, my thoughts, my experiences and my opinions. the ones who appreciate it, kindly visit again, others- u too visit again coz its very difficult to ignore me sweetheart!
Adios! (by the way, some wannabe's love to use the word without even knowing how to spell it)